January 2012
People say that change is the only thing that is constant. I’m not so sure. Several things do change- true. But then there are those things, those feelings that don’t seem to change. Ignorant people will tend to remain trapped in their bubbles, and old habits die hard. It’s difficult to change somebody stuck in their old ways, and it’s difficult to stop loving certain...
There is no fucking point in making long posts whining.
I swallowed twenty odd pills last night and my mom thinks I don’t have the right to be sad and no-one suggested sending me for help and my dad wants to come fetch me to live with him.
And I don’t know. I don’t have the right to be sad. That’s all I’ve heard. “grow balls, Ellie.” My mom thinks I...
I didn't go to school today.
I probably won’t for a few days. Sometimes I need to withdraw and think and become okay again. It’s how I work. I think my mom gets that.
i’m not going to reply to all the anon messages, because i don’t want to flood my dash/blog with them. but thank you to every nice message. it was quite appreciated .thank you. and to anyone who sincerely cared.
i cracked and ate a muffin today
and now i want to scream because that means my days of starving have come to complete waste. it’s weekend and i don’t want to be around anyone. “can’t go out, too busy being fat.” i wish that was acceptable.
Anonymous asked: I hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow. You deserve to be happy.
I go back to school tomorrow. The first day of a...
i can’t even begin to explain how sick and nervous this makes me feel. i don’t even want to elaborate on all the factors that combine to make school as horrible as it is. all i know is that i’m going to be consumed by the same old cycle- the coming home and crying everyday, the pills, the razorblades… school makes me so sick.
i just want this year to be good. ortherwise, i want to sleep for very...
i wholeheartedly promise i’ve given up on love. i’ve given up on feelings. i genuinely don’t want a relationship, ever. i genuinely don’t want more short-lived friendships. i want to go out, i want to drink, i want to take mdma everyday. i want to make simple, easy friendships with people that are fun and mature and like good music and can hold decent conversations and like drugs. i want to...
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2006 Pete Wentz blog post
“Watching the ice princess with joe troh. I seriously love the boys in my band more than anything. Them > anyone else ever. Even if this all goes away and no one cares. Three people on the planet understand me.”
Anonymous asked: been there done that (MDMA) STAY HYDRATED and in a ventilated area. Dance your heart out, have fun, don't let anyone take advantage of you but most of all be careful!
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going to a trance party tomorrow ah ye.
things that rock about being back home:
-i get to spend intensive amounts of time cuddling and kissing my dogs while ignoring all human life forms
-yep
-that’s it
Shutter Island is a brilliant movie. I’ve even managed to not cry over the fact that Leonardo DiCaprio became so unattractive when he used to be such a QT.
gaskarthseyebrows:
I’ve got 99 problems and they’re all concerts I can’t go to.
I’m awake at six thirty am searching “kawaii” in the app store and downloading apps that are all Japanese. Yeh brill life I lead xoxo
loveismyjudge:
You know when you get used to lying cuddling someone and then you lie down by yourself and realise how shit it is being alone I don’t know I can’t explain it but this sucks
I emotionally connect myself to people I don’t even know. It’s prospect of getting to know them, or being considered their friend that engulfs me.
annejenm:
Young, Wild, and Free - Wiz Khalifa...
Anonymous asked: are you the only white person in your class
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This ‘fan mail’ thing is really weird and confusing. I don’t understand the point of it. I also don’t know how to reply to it on my iPhone. Wah :-((
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“We were young, we were reckless, arrogant, silly, headstrong … and we were...”
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