I started school again today and it was awful BUT I literally only have 11 weeks of school left then I am done forever. I can move out of this town. I can start a new life with new people either studying or working and doing what I like, going where I like and living in my own house filled with my own things. I know it’s not going to be easy or perfect or even okay overnight, but it is going to be better in a number of ways. I’ve felt overwhelmingly trapped in my situation for several years, and being able to leave is going to help with that constant overwhelmingly feeling. I’m not scared to be alone or independent- there’s nothing more I want. I’ve always been alone and dealing with very adult ideas and situations for a long time now. Moving just means I get to fully be my own person in full charge of my decisions. I refuse to accept that what I’ve been exposed to in the past few years is what the rest of my life is going to be like. I want something different, and I will get it. I don’t have to live for other people anymore or by their terms and conditions. I can’t wait.

The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes. -Marcel Proust (via introspectivepoet)

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