i can’t even begin to explain how sick and nervous this makes me feel. i don’t even want to elaborate on all the factors that combine to make school as horrible as it is. all i know is that i’m going to be consumed by the same old cycle- the coming home and crying everyday, the pills, the razorblades… school makes me so sick.

i just want this year to be good. ortherwise, i want to sleep for very long, and wake up realising this has all been a dream. a sick, twisted nightmare.