it's been a while since I stared at the stars
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Today was fantastic. I ran out of math crying, then avoided the next two periods. I returned to have no-one even ask if I was okay lol. Yeah, I’m fine. Just lost the only friends I have at school. I lost my second closest friend I’ve ever had. Evereverever. And I found out people have been phoning eachother everyday bitching about me. Whatever I left home too and it’s fucking brilliant because I’m watching cars drive past and I want one to hit me. I wish one could hit me. I wish I wish I wish.



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  1. loveinyourarms said: no :c go back home love. be safe. please
  2. boycott-love posted this



hi, i'm ellie and i'm the most miserable person i know. it's impossible to write something that doesn't make me sound like a cliche. i like sincerity, coffee, thc, dissociative thoughts and lo-fi. i count days since significant events, and i have nightmares every night of which the worst ones aren't nightmares at all. i've changed a lot within this past year.

21 days to a year since this started. 27 days to a year since this really started. I FUCKING MISS YOU.

"you know in a year it's gonna be better. you know in a year i'm gonna be happy."