it's been a while since I stared at the stars

you will be okay. even if you don't believe it now. you might think there are people who don't care about you, but in actual fact there are many people who really do care dearly about you (trust me i know). it is okay to be sad sometimes, but please before you do anything serious - like take pills - again, remember those people. people do love you, dearly, especially telling from the kind messages you get and your friends on here. x x
Asked by Anonymous

thank you. i do try to remember that i have people that care for me. sometimes it hurts to have the people i care about the most not care about me, but that’s how life goes. and i’m trying to learn to deal. people on here are wonderful. they support me more than people in real life. i’m eternally grateful for that.

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hellokatehere said: Please be good to yourself. So many people care about you <3
boycott-love posted this

hi, i'm ellie and i'm the most miserable person i know. it's impossible to write something that doesn't make me sound like a cliche. i like sincerity, coffee, thc, dissociative thoughts and lo-fi. i count days since significant events, and i have nightmares every night of which the worst ones aren't nightmares at all. i've changed a lot within this past year.

21 days to a year since this started. 27 days to a year since this really started. I FUCKING MISS YOU.

"you know in a year it's gonna be better. you know in a year i'm gonna be happy."