it's been a while since I stared at the stars

Why don’t you talk to your friends? I can totally imagine why you wouldn’t want to, but if you think you can trust them, then I think you should try. Then they’ll be able to see that they made wrong assumptions and all you need is for them to be there for you, which might make things a whole lot better for you. Obviously I don’t know them/you but maybe it’s worth a shot? X
Asked by Anonymous

i don’t have friends anymore. not like, ones at my school or whatever. they’ve been talking shit about me to eachother for a while now. whatever. i lost them all today. i cried at school and none of them even talked to me afterwards. and i even sent them messages saying i loved them and stuff. no-one cares. i’m the bad guy. i have no friends.

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boycott-love posted this

hi, i'm ellie and i'm the most miserable person i know. it's impossible to write something that doesn't make me sound like a cliche. i like sincerity, coffee, thc, dissociative thoughts and lo-fi. i count days since significant events, and i have nightmares every night of which the worst ones aren't nightmares at all. i've changed a lot within this past year.

21 days to a year since this started. 27 days to a year since this really started. I FUCKING MISS YOU.

"you know in a year it's gonna be better. you know in a year i'm gonna be happy."