it's been a while since I stared at the stars

I’m really sorry to hear about your friends. Try your hardest to stay positive though - if there’s no hope with your old friends then they probably aren’t worth it. You never know who your next friends will be, because you WILL find people you can trust and who care about you, you will not be alone. Things get better. If there’s only one thing that you keep telling yourself, it’s that. There will always be people there for you, they just might not be there so obviously. Go and find them! :)
Asked by Anonymous

that’s very nice of you to say. i hope it happens soon. thank you for the kind words :) <3

hi, i'm ellie and i'm the most miserable person i know. it's impossible to write something that doesn't make me sound like a cliche. i like sincerity, coffee, thc, dissociative thoughts and lo-fi. i count days since significant events, and i have nightmares every night of which the worst ones aren't nightmares at all. i've changed a lot within this past year.

21 days to a year since this started. 27 days to a year since this really started. I FUCKING MISS YOU.

"you know in a year it's gonna be better. you know in a year i'm gonna be happy."